Here we reproduce some excerpts: 24 March 1920: – Swami Chetanananda

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Sri Sarada Devi And Her Divine Play – Swami Chetanananda
Chapter 34: Return To Her True Abode
Sarajubala’s Reminiscences : p. 735-736
Holy Mother was very fond of and free with Sarajubala. She Visited Holy Mother five times during her last illness, and she recorded these visits in her reminiscences. Here we reproduce some excerpts:
24 March 1920:

Swami Chetanananda

Holy Mother was extremely unwell, having been in the grip of malarial fever for a long time. I prostrated myself before her, and she blessed me by placing her hand on my head. She asked me how I was. I offered her a little money for her expenses, and she accepted it. At the sight of her emaciated body, I lost all power of speech. I looked at her face wistfully and thought, “Alas, how pale and weak her body is.”
The Mother was so weak that she felt it painful even to utter a word. I was seated on the floor. In the meantime, Rasbihari Maharaj came up and asked me not to talk much with her; but the Mother now and then asked me about various things. I gave her short replies.
30 March 1920:
I went to pay my respects to Holy Mother after five or six days. She had had no fever for the previous two or three days, but she was much worried on account of Radhu and her incapacity to look after her little child. The Mother lay down on her bed and asked me to rub her feet. While rubbing them, I asked her whether I could speak to her about something and if it would inconvenience her. The Mother said: “No, not at all. Say what you want to.”
I told her about some experiences I had had, and at this the Mother remarked: “Ah, my daughter, can one experience such bliss every day? Everything is real. Nothing is untrue. The Master is all he is Prakriti, he is Purusha. Through him you will achieve everything.”
I: “Mother, one day while doing japa with great concentration, a long period of time passed quite unobserved. I therefore had to get up and attend to my household duties without carrying out the other items of Spiritual practices that you had instructed me to do. Was it wrong on my part to have done so?”
Mother: “No, no. There is nothing wrong in it.”
I: “Someone told me that while meditating at dead of night, he hears a mystic sound. Generally he experiences it as coming from the right side of the body; sometimes, when the mind is working on a lower plane, it comes also from the left side.”
Mother (after thinking a while): “Indeed, the sound comes from the right side. Only when there is body-consciousness does it come from the left side. Such things happen when the power of the kundalini is awakened. The sound that comes from the right side is the real one. In time, the mind itself becomes the guru. To pray to God and meditate on God for even two minutes with full concentration is better than doing so for long hours without it.”
I did not feel inclined to question the Mother on the significance of body-consciousness, for the Mother was not doing well.
I was about to leave. Instantly the Mother raised her head from the pillow and said, “Well, my daughter, I have raised my head.” She did so because it is not the custom for a devotee to bow down to one lying down. When I bowed down, she said: “Come again. Come a little earlier in the evening. Can’t you finish your household duties a little earlier and come?”
Then, uttering the name of Durga as a prayer for my safety, she bade me adieu. Even after I had come to the veranda, I heard her uttering the name of Durga in a compassionate tone. What unbounded love! So long as we were with her, we forgot all the sorrows and suffering of worldly life.
Jai Maa 🙏🙏🙏